Gratitude

A big word but yet easy
A simple gesture and action that we are able to do
Taken for granted most of the time
So what could it be for you today
That would be a reflection of gratitude
A thank you
A smile
A gaze
A touch
There is no limit to express gratitude
Neither the time limit for being grateful
Maybe for now
A thought of being in gratitude would suffice ...

I Lost a Friend

I lost a friend today...
Not just a friend, not just any friend
She is a person that I admire, adore and loved 
A shoulder to cry on when I need some comfort
A great listener to listen to my ranting
A fantastic mirror as I could count on her feedback, wouldn't sell me out on anything and ensure that I always on track
A cheer leader that will cheer me up to continue doing what I started even though I felt like giving up halfway
A great companion doing all the crazy, fun, unreasonable and challenging things in both our life
A person who was well-traveled as to expand her perspective of life and be free
A creative entrepreneur who has touched so many lives through her work because her work is her passion
A loving wife, mother and daughter, her love is so infectious and so unconditional that she did not mind to go the extra miles 

Shub, the name that I fondly called her
I will be missing her calling my name too
Even though it is difficult for me to learn to live without you by my side
I will cherish every moment that we spent together in the last 10 years
I am so grateful that I get to know you
I know that you will be up there somewhere with Paul and Little Kaela
I lost a friend, a soul mate today...
But your love and memories will always be with me till the end...   I love you Shub...

* Shuba, her husband Paul Goes and their young daughter Kaela were among the 298 passengers onboard of flight MH71 that has been shot down at the Russia-Ukraine border.

Space of forgiveness

It is not an act
It is not a doing
It is the intention and part of our essential being
To fore go the need to hold on to

In that space of forgiveness
Love and hatred cannot co exist
Forgiveness is willingness
It is in the acceptance and letting go
A desire arise to give love again unconditionally
It does not bound by past and history
It is not a have to but merely a choice

An epic battle between the glory of pride and a space of humility
Fierce and intense in the heart of a man
When ego subsides and love surmounts and conquered the space
It will be filled with passion and grace
A spirit of calmness and the rest fizzles through thin air
A space which is vast but yet filled
Overflowing and full of abundance
A feeling of whole and yet healing
And that is a space of forgiving...

How are you feeling?

Today is another usual encounter that I have with people. I had glimpse of thoughts here and there. What caught my attention today was, when I asked this question "How do you feel now?" The usual answers would be :

• I don't know
• Feelings?! (Like a strange word)
• What do you mean?
• I don't have any feelings...
• Ok
• I feel .....
• Silent ....

My thought ... How could that happen? How could we have the hesitation to feel. Aren't we suppose to have feelings/ emotions, to feel... Have we lost it? Feeling is like a censor or a guide to us, becoming human. That is part of our emotional intelligence (EQ) (I think...). Some of us take sometimes to find words to describe feeling. I googled the list of word for feeling and I found that it's more than 150 words that could describe different feelings or experience that could express our emotions.

So how come we say that we have no feelings? Is it that we are afraid to feel? Have we numb ourselves? Or are we too busy to feel so we just let the feelings disappear ...  

When we come to the world, we are full of emotions and feelings even when we do not understand a word, we know how to express our emotions. Are we zombifying ourselves now in life? At what price?

How are you feeling?